in the beginning, I thought love was what everyone wanted and what everyone needs now im not so sure, and I would like to describe something, im not quit sure though so, this blog is about discovery as much as sharing myself. I want to describe the feelings I get in context as though I am making this a diary but for people to read.
but I wont hold back I promise x
ok I think my first love was my dog he was my best friend and my only companion though the hardest times I ever had, his name was buster and my mum found him running around in the road out front of my house, we already had a dog lead and collar from our last dog that my mum got when my sister was born witch died a few years before hand, we took the dog to the police they said you can keep it for 2 weeks and we will contact you if someone come in looking for it, after 2 weeks we can ether put it down or you can keep it, at that time my mum looked at me and said ''liam do you want a dog?'' pure happiness filled my face with a huge grin and I said yes how could I not.
he was a half border collie half Alsatian and his tail was cut off but that ment nothing to me all i knew was I had a dog :D I walked him every day without fail and then one day he had a fit and I had to hold him so he would not hurt himself I was so scared I just got a friend and he was struggling, over time he had less and less fits they came around maybe every 2 months, and one day in one off his fits he just went limp when I was holding him in my arms, it was so sudden and he got so much heavier I remember trying to give him the kiss off life, chest compressions, and plain screaming but I had no idea what to do, his gums went grey and i knew he was gone I burred my head in his fur and cried I had never felt so much before. he made me fell content and he gave me something no abject could and he left and I never got to say goodbye. my mum asked me to go get a blanket from upstairs when I got down we wrapped him in it when my step dad got home from work I got one of my friends and we got a spade with help from them we dug a grave in the back garden I had never felt so weak as I did then.
but I wont hold back I promise x
ok I think my first love was my dog he was my best friend and my only companion though the hardest times I ever had, his name was buster and my mum found him running around in the road out front of my house, we already had a dog lead and collar from our last dog that my mum got when my sister was born witch died a few years before hand, we took the dog to the police they said you can keep it for 2 weeks and we will contact you if someone come in looking for it, after 2 weeks we can ether put it down or you can keep it, at that time my mum looked at me and said ''liam do you want a dog?'' pure happiness filled my face with a huge grin and I said yes how could I not.
he was a half border collie half Alsatian and his tail was cut off but that ment nothing to me all i knew was I had a dog :D I walked him every day without fail and then one day he had a fit and I had to hold him so he would not hurt himself I was so scared I just got a friend and he was struggling, over time he had less and less fits they came around maybe every 2 months, and one day in one off his fits he just went limp when I was holding him in my arms, it was so sudden and he got so much heavier I remember trying to give him the kiss off life, chest compressions, and plain screaming but I had no idea what to do, his gums went grey and i knew he was gone I burred my head in his fur and cried I had never felt so much before. he made me fell content and he gave me something no abject could and he left and I never got to say goodbye. my mum asked me to go get a blanket from upstairs when I got down we wrapped him in it when my step dad got home from work I got one of my friends and we got a spade with help from them we dug a grave in the back garden I had never felt so weak as I did then.
